areku_hanyou

hey ppl ,

nothin here just bored like hell lol but ne way i got to go clean talk to yall later

~!~areku~!~

hey ppl,

nothiin here i am just 15...... since...... sunday i thought that i might update today because....ummm.... really, i didnt want to because i have so much to do like get presents for those whoms birthday is today lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so that calls for a trip to the mall lol n e way and i have to have a party thingy for those who have a birthday today lol hehehehe mwhahahaha ne way got to go.......

love to all

~!~areku~!~

hey again,

i had tryed to update four times and i am not going to do it again if i cant don it tonight anyway today was ok went to the mall read some good books are in and i am glad they are.... anyway i was mad at anji today not sayin why because i think that other ppl will try and use it againsts me... anyway i have tryed to ask natalie to come over a few times never was able to get a hold on her some times think that she and i are just playin phone tag * thinks this is not laughin matter* any way i am tired bored and still a little angry... bye

~!~areku~!~

well today sucked i thought that everything would go fine but it didnt i didnt get the homework that i needed to get finished done and now i am rally behind!!!!! i wish that time would stop so that i could finish my homework..... and here is a little thing i would like to say (and i just made it up) " life is like a ball of yarn one mistake and your in a knot" and i am now i am HUGE KNOT *tear* i may fail this nine week because of alot of thing that happen to be disturbing me and i am not going to say what they are because it will disturb yall so yea n e who yea and well my friends (if i really even have any) left me today at my table with a guy who is athious and started (out of the blue) talking about how fuck up he is because he had BARS this morning.... interseting ....... not really ....... but yea soooooo umm what else oh i knooo found out my friend is sick and has been for the last two or three days not saying that its bad but i had been trying to get a hold of her since then........ yah so to sum it up I AREKU HANYOU AM DEPRESSED........... i never really admitt to something like that but i am in pain, anger, and lonliness. but who cares ....... i know that my life isnt as bad as others but right now it is pretty DANG bad......... well that is it and i really am (to let you know nat) that i am going to bed and probably wish i was dead in hopin that the world would change........

love ya (whatever)

areku hanyou

well today nthing happened again *sighs* i am bored and tired bt when am i ever not lol n e way yea today and for the last two days we've had to go to study hall and stay in there for like 5hrs but my study hall is pretty fun execpt for the fact that our teacher wouldnt let us watch coyote ugly and well i wanted so bad to watch that but i guess he isnt THAT kewl lol ne way i have fun learning how to dance and talk *whispers* lesbeans lol i cant spell haha n e way yea then i go to 4th period and wait a while till the bell rings to go to 5th and there we watched a movie on mount eversts it was pretty cool i wish that i could go execpt the storms that is creates can kill u...... *whispers.... not me * lol n e way yea and the lunch i had a lot of fun i ate lunch and jacked emilys course she didnt care lol and i went and sat with erin, and megan. i got there in just the nick of time because they were reading this little thing that was just sooooooo funny and i think that they should publish them i mean all we ever read is either love, action , adventure or crap lol........... or at least have it as a cartoon i mean it is just that good lol!!!!!!! lol n e way yea then after lunch i go to science and i just watched a movie that i saw in study hall _._ *fall over and dies**resurrects myself* i mean i ALREADY SAW IT!!!!!!!!! *tear* n e way then i go to math and that is a fun class my teacher let me listen to my CD player haha! <---- that was ralph (off that simpsons) lol ne way yea and then i see nat megan and erin after school.... I GOT NAT"S B_DAY PRESENT!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL HEHEHE!!!!!!!!! n e way yea talk to yall later!!!!!!!!

p.s. today was national weed day! lol!

~!~areku~!~

i just got diconnected from the computer and i hated that becuase i had A LOT written but o well n e way yea i am depress dont know why again maybe because of the fight and maybe something else n e way i dont kno and i am tired my throat hurts and i never can get to sleep on time.... n e way yea i went to school like always came home found out my mother is a bad girl.. (went behind my bad) and well the ppl i have been fighting with will be seeing me hopfully on friday lol n e way yea i am tired and i am going to go soon but before that i am going to say a few things that i feel my be the cause of my depression

1)erin movin (everyone has to agree that is depressing and to early)
2)the fight( with everyone)
3)sickness (i think )
4) school (maybe)
5) me finding out that i dont think that i will ever be able to love again...(stopped lovin to quick(killed all love senses)) *tear*
6)my friends being depressed(not saying who)
7) and i am working on this one.....

so i guess that is about all i have to say
adios

~!~areku~!~

well today was intersesting i mean erin called me a bitch (wonders) and i find out that she is the one who huny on me and nat is depress i am in a lot of pain from my head down to my spine i mean i have a lot of stuff to talk about i am afria that i am starting to like feras again and i am not going to lett that happen lol... erin u  are movin and i amd not happy about i think that u shout wait till u are in college to move but i guess that u dont really want to stay.......... because i know that it was u that hung up on me and nat and i want to kno whaat the hell is going on with u i know that u dont want to go to nats i know that u meant to call me a bitch and i kno that my sister talk to u but i want to kno are u talkin to matt, are u doing shit that u shouldnt because now i frankly dont know who u are i mean you dont talk to me as much as we used to and there is nothin i can give you but a ride home and really i think that u just dont want to be n e ones friend and i am doing all in my power to keep that from happening..... i mean i cant wait to go to the doc. and find out that i probably have a heart condition because of all the stress of hearing zip about what is with you because u wont say n e thing and i dont kno why i mean i swore to god years ago that i would do ne thing to protect my friends and their friendships but i mean what u are doing erin is just taking my heart and ripping it because i am afraid that i cant take this n e more and that i might get real sick because i keep worring about u and your life...... and nat she is going through extreme things.... she likes someone and she doesnt want u to leave and i dont either not saying that the others do. i am just talkin about the people u rarely talk to now and that is me and nat........ i want us to be friends but this moving is just killing me inside.... *cries* i just say to myself that this is to early i cant take it and i dont want to take it...but i mean life suck and we have to move on .....exept i dont want n e of this to hurt you erin but it will because i think the only reason your parent are on u like hawks is bevcause they sence the change in u...........but yea ne way i got to go and tell brittany that i am sorry that i threaten her she is a good person but she cant do some of the things that she does sometimes...........* walks away*

~!~areku~!~

well yesterday night was interesting i was depressed for a reason i really dont kno.... and i still am but i have some ideas what it might be

1) people and there families

2) people not gettin along (me!!!!!!! and i dont care)

3) people not giving a shit about others and walking over ppl thinking only of themselves

4) ummmmmmmmm......... things

that is about it but yea n e way i had brittany dobbins over at my house last night it was real fun like when i told her what i thought i might be angry at...... and then the phone ruined my night!!!! nat and i wanted to talk to our friend erin and it was really late at night i kno probably did get in trouble and i am sorry but when a rude *** ***** hangs up on me and nat has something coming and erin i know that u are reading this (maybe) but tell brittney that i can give a hoot and a holler wether she dont like me.. and if she wants to talk shit about me then go right ahead but u gotta think is a dumb eighth grader more important than you school work no and u know what erin nat and i plan this **** party of HERS for a f-ing month and u blow it off for some thing ............. nvm u dont care i dont care i am going this weekend and I"M going to have fun........ so yea n e way here is some word of advice to people...

when u hear rudeness stop and tape the rudness up or u too will become the rudness.....

~!~areku~!~

p.s. brittney if u read this i am waiting.............

well today was pretty weird i mean first i got up and thought that we were going to go to church but we didnt and second my dad told us (with him crying) that our grandmother WAS going to move in with us and that means that kelli was going to have to move out because she doesnt want to move from one room to other and then move to an apartment the next month...... i mean i love my grandmother more than n e thing i mean she is the last grandparent that i have and i just think that if she does die in the time my dad said then i just hope that i dont get that close to her because i hate death....................................................................................................................................... i mean i REALLY HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries*................................................ why do we have to die?? i kno that it is life but what if??? you kno?? n e way the only good thing is that my dad said that when she does come that he is going to get high speed internet and cable although i dont really what TV n e way but hey ANIME MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehhe i cant wait but the problem is that there is a plumbing problem with the bathroom that my grandmother is going to move into so that means that i have to WAIT!! lol !! o well i can wait i have this last five year and longer i think that i can wait a few more months lol!!! *clonked over the head by anji* *but then slaps her**has little cat fight* *alex wins* llooll hehehe n e way yea and i think that is all that i have today!!!!!!! and well i talk to erin and well i didnt get to call her back because we had the spyware on and it was on the internet and i could turn it off so yea SORRY ERIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yea do just talk to yall later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love to all

~!~areku~!~

today is a day that i wish that could never of come..............

i just wish that people just didnt have to die you kno i mean it is ok for ppl to die sometimes only because it would create balance through the world.... but yea and to myself i kno that i really dont want to die but in everyone elses eyes they kno that they will die sooner or later... this hole thing with the pope has really made me feel like crap because i never was nice to many people and myself  so here i my promise to not be cruel to people and if i do so then i will say my sorrys and hope that they forgive me......

well i am going to go i dont kno what to say later

love to all

alex

well,

today i went to school and everythin went kewl.... i came home and had a great nap and then talk on IM for a while but not a lot because i am not aloud to be on lol but ne yea and then i went shopping and got cute stuff for easter and i think that i am not going to be ugly lol hehe but eya and not here  i am !!!!! lol i am so bored i should be doing my homework but i am not really ready to do it yet lol i am tired and lazy but proud of it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have math to do and i think that it is easy but i kno that it is just going to get harder and i dont want it to but it will so oh well.... and what is funny is that one of my friends said today that he wishes that who ever invented algebra should be killed lol but o well n e way got to go love to all

~!~areku~!~ 

well today i was having a great day and still am... well ne way i went to school today and well we got out early and it was al great i had a lot of fun TRYING to get to my classes lol!! lol i love to laugh it is real healthy SCREW the doctor if they think that laughin is not healthy!!!!!!! lol i kno i kno i shoudnt yell oh well it is my life and i have a big mouth lol n e way after school i had a great nap and then i went to the movies... i am on the internet and that is all that is happening now but i kno that next thing is going to be dinneer and then study and the shower and bed isnt that a really terrific plan lol i kno I KNO OK gah lol! but yea ne who talk to yall later and dont worry i wont stop drawing lol talk to yall later

~!~areku~!~

well today wasnt n e wthing real important just found out that i think some guy likes me and i cant do n e thing to stop that not like i would want to.. it is just the he used to go out with some other girl who is just got to kno and that is not a good thing to do... go out with a guy that you know that has gone out with nearly all your friends that is not good lol but n e way yea i cant wait till thurs because i am going to see the hostage i cant wait and then i am goin to the man of the house with friends on fri i cant wait and then i am going to have a sleep over with an old friend i cant wait i miss talkin to her. she is so kewl lol well n e way i got togo i have homework and alot of more things lol well later!

~!~areku~!~

well today was okay nothn really happend umm nat slept over and we had alot of fun because we kept kickin @$$ lol at DDR lol i was soo happy awell well i found these two ppl from live journal and i think that they both draw fantastic hehe i want them to be my idols they are so cool lol wel n e way i will talk more later !!!!!!!!!

~!~areku~!~